Have you ever had one of those day’s; those days where you wake up in a happy and positive mood? Well that was me today! I woke up feeling good like everything is going to work out. Then boom! The household woke up and everything started going down hill from there on out.
I called a friend to see how it was going without her stove-top to cook on, but while I was on the phone the kids got progressively loud. I asked them to stop but they wouldn’t, so I quietly told them to either go outside or to their separate corners of the camper. They did not listen at all!
I was cooking breakfast at the same time that I was talking. By the time the conversation ended food was ready and served. For some reason though the girls took an hour and a half to eat their eggs.. I let them know that we needed to go grocery shopping but that did not bother them what so ever.
Oh but wait not only did the girls decide to take forever to eat, my son was having a hard time. He was picking up the remote to shut my music off but without making sure that I was done listening to it. I caught him before he could even pick it up and told him not to shut it off; he did it anyway’s. I yelled and said I was still listening to that and that is when he froze up and wouldn’t bugde. I found out when I raise my voice it triggers him to freeze up and not respond to me and what I ask him to do. I am also learning that my trigger is my asking him not to do something and he does it anyways. We are working on this with help. None of this usually gets my panties in a bunch, but it is a 30 minute drive to a decent grocery store.
It ended up being 10:30 in the morning before we could even get out the door. The whole time we were grocery shopping they were loud and obnoxious. I wanted to literally keep everything in the damn cart and leave. If it wasn’t for the fact that we actually needed to get the damn food I would have.
We get to the check out counter and the kids are loading everything up onto the conveyorbelt and Kaarina accidently drops a whole container of yogurt luckily it fell upside down so it was an easy clean up. Or it would have been if she would have left it alone like I asked her to. This should not have even surprised me because I have taught them over the years to clean up their messes! So I am sure that it confused the living daylights out of her when I told her no leave it alone. But alas I was a bit stressed and angry with how the day was going. So when Kaarina got the container picked up to make it even harder Charlie decides to step in it and smeared the yogurt more. Gah!
Let me tell you I had to look away and count to one hundred. I was so anxious and stressed by the time we got home at around two that the only thing that I could think of to feed them was left over smoked chicken and green beans from, dinner the previous night.
A neighbor child came over to play after lunch thank goodness, because it gave me the opertunity to decompress and think about how I handled my stress and anger. I turned on the Neuro cycle app to help me through the process. I am completely new to stress, anxiety, and anger so I need that extra help. After I completed my mini cycle I felt way calmer and capable to get household chores done. The kids were happy playing and I was happy getting dinner ready and dishes done.
I hope this either brought back memories of raising your kids! Or some of you can relate to this happening in your lives. In the end today is another day and we can all do better with understanding and communicating with each other. We are working on this and we are making progress but some day’s are easier than others!
I hope you all have a happy and wonderful day! Please note this all happened yesterday 11/03/2021.